Well kids, unless I am REALLY drawn to write again, this could very well be the last blog of blcinscotland...it has been a wild, thought-provoking, growth-filled, experiential, massive, spiritual, heartfelt, comfort zone expanding, kick ass time. I won't even try to sum it up here and now because then what would be the point of this blog for the last three months. It is the second to last night and almost all of my stuff is packed. I am just sitting at the computer, copying music for people, relaxing. Last night was a late one and tonight I need sleep. I have a few days of jet lag ahead of me. I can't believe it's time to go home. Although it does not feel like "yesterday" since I first came here, it does feel as though time warped in a very unique way. I can't believe I am going home in less than a week. I can't believe that my going home is also a sort of departure. I have definitely changed here...maybe it's not obvious, but it's very real to me.
Everyone has gone out and I am here all alone, testing out what it will be like at home. YIKES. I don't really look forward to too much time alone (who is this girl???) and I will be sad about not having a roommate (no, really, we better call a doctor!). I think for all the trials I had to go through in this community, it was worth it, because now I feel like I am ready to share my life with others. I think my willingness to partner has been really significant. I remember telling a friend of mine in Seattle that living here has made that a lot more accessible. I was in a very independent mindframe at home and being here with people all around, has definitely shifted that. That's quite a change for me. I'm not even sure what that will mean, and I can only find out after I get home and intentionally work to create that.
Speaking of intentionally creating...I'd love to start a writer's workshop...with open mics once a month...I think that will be really cool. I want to read and workshop my stuff in order to publish and if I can make it a group thing, I think it'll be a lot of fun. So many ideas, I don't know what to do with myself. At the moment, my only concern is getting home by the 10th.
Oh, that reminds me, it's a no go for the party on the 21st...I'll try to find another time that's better. Maybe after x-mas and before New year's. In any case, not going to worry about that now. Ha.

Okay, well I am signing off now...here I go...thanks to EVERYONE for reading and giving me feedback and being in my community...I am eager to see you all when I get home. Feel free to call me, or email, but also know that I will be recovering from jet lag a bit and might not leave my house (except for the much needed and well overdue haircut) for a few days...
That's it then. Here's to an awesome term in Scotland!